For the next few days...

Hi guys :) So for the next few days, probably until Tuesday, I will be eating like a normal person. I know, it seems hard to believe that this is possible. I just can't focus on my exams when I'm constantly thinking about food, or berating myself for a binge, or whatever. So in order to not fail out of college, I will eat. Just until Tuesday, and then it's back to starving. I am not counting calories, because I will want to kill myself. I will not weigh myself until Wednesday, and then I will lose all the weight I've gained back. As long as I don't let it turn into a four-day binge, I shouldn't gain too much.

I got weighed at the doctor's office yesterday and I was 179, but I really needed to pee, was fully clothed, and had just eaten lunch. So it wasn't a completely accurate number. After doing my exam (annual gyno exam, yay fun) the doctor asked me, was my diet and exercise was going alright? Do I exercise? Yes, of course I exer

cise. I love it when doctors imply that you are fat without actually saying it. It was not her job to ask my those questions, but she did anyway. Like she felt justified because she had just looked in my vagina. Right.

I want to kill myself slightly less than on Wednesday, which is good. I think that eating normally for a few days will be good for me, because then I won't get really stressed and binge and hate myself.

Well, sorry I can't be more inspiring. I'll inspire you all starting again on Tuesday, when I will start to shed all the weight I gain over the next few days. Think thin!