Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Thank you guys so much!
Today went alright, although I ended up eating a lot of candy... I figure that it's ok to give myself a couple of free days before I make myself not binge. If I keep trying to deprive myself of things I want, like candy, then I'll just binge more later I think.
I didn't count calories today (well, a little bit, but then I stopped myself). I didn't weigh myself this morning, although I really wanted to. I went grocery shopping this evening, and I stocked up on healthy things that I can eat for my meals. Here is my food plan:
- Granola with skim milk or vanilla yogurt
- Peanut butter and banana sandwich
- Low fat yogurt
- 1 Bartlett pear
- Red grapes
- Baby carrots
- Mixed nuts
Dinner (example, since every day will be different)
- Whole wheat pasta with marinara sauce
- Salad with low fat dressing
- Diet Coke
- Lots of WATER
- Vitamin Water Zero
I hope this will be good for me. I made the food plan with my boyfriend's mom. She follows a modified Weight Watchers plan, so these meals are based on a certain number of items in each food group, not calories. I feel like if I knew how many calories I was eating, I would get obsessive about it.
In other exciting news, I am going to get an appointment for a psychiatric evaluation! As you know, I work at a counseling clinic, and my bf's mom offered to get me in to see the psychiatric nurse. She can give me a psych evaluation and get me medications for my depression and anxiety disorders. I am really nervous, but hopeful that it will be helpful.
I really want this to work for me. My long-term goals are to a) be happy at whatever weight I'm at and b) to not use food to stuff down my feelings or deal with my problems.
Like I said, you guys are amazing. I love you so much, and I really appreciate you. THANK YOU. Stay strong everyone <3
**When I say "stay strong," I mean stay strong in whatever you are doing, whether that may be starving or recovery.