Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Job Training- Day 2

Today didn't go awful, but it didn't go well either. My training was good, and after that I worked some more in the office, so I got 7.5 hours of work today. If I work from 9 am to 5 pm on Thursday and Friday, I will have 39 hours total this week, so about $300 before taxes! Yay money :) Here is what I ate today:

- Breakfast: Yogurt (100)
- Snack: 1 twizzler (25)
- Lunch: 1 piece of Papa John's cheese pizza (280) and Diet Coke (0)
- Dinner: Salad with light dressing (25), tortellini with marinara sauce (45), and 10 baby carrots (25)
Total calories: 600

I really didn't want to eat the pizza, but I was afraid that people at my training would think I was weird if I didn't eat anything. That was the only option available. Remember, I work at a counseling center, so any signs of an eating disorder would likely be noticed right away. It kind of sucks.

I lost another pound today! I'm down to 181, which means I only have 6 more pounds to go before I'm back where I was. I can do this!!

I picked up my books at the library today! I got Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson, The Best Little Girl in the World by Steven Levenkron, Skinny by Ibi Kaslik, Purge by Sarah Littman, and Hunger Point by Jillian Medoff. I have read most of them before, but it's been a really long time. Unfortunately, it's hard to get time by myself to read them, because my bf would be suspicious and think I was relapsing (which I am, duh).

I'm leaving for a visit home on Saturday, and I really hope my parents don't catch on to my ED! I had a hard enough time at dinner tonight. My bf's parents tried to make me eat more tonight, but I lied and said I ate a lot for lunch. They had a crap-ton of pizza, pasta, and other food at the office today, so it's a plausible story.

Stay strong girls! Do better than me :)

2 comments:

  1. Great job, Liz! You can definitely do this, just stay in the right mindset! Think about how great it feels to have a good day and to see those numbers go down on the scale. Also, while you're home there are plenty of little tricks you can use so that your parents wont catch on-I'm not really sure what your family dynamic is like, if you sit down for meals together, or what-but if you have a specific circumstance or situation you are worried about, message me! Great job again!

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  2. Well done girly, you're doing great (:
    <33
    Lots of loves
    Madz

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