- Breakfast: Yogurt (100)
- Snack: 1 twizzler (25)
- Lunch: 1 piece of Papa John's cheese pizza (280) and Diet Coke (0)
- Dinner: Salad with light dressing (25), tortellini with marinara sauce (45), and 10 baby carrots (25)
Total calories: 600
I really didn't want to eat the pizza, but I was afraid that people at my training would think I was weird if I didn't eat anything. That was the only option available. Remember, I work at a counseling center, so any signs of an eating disorder would likely be noticed right away. It kind of sucks.
I lost another pound today! I'm down to 181, which means I only have 6 more pounds to go before I'm back where I was. I can do this!!
I picked up my books at the library today! I got Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson, The Best Little Girl in the World by Steven Levenkron, Skinny by Ibi Kaslik, Purge by Sarah Littman, and Hunger Point by Jillian Medoff. I have read most of them before, but it's been a really long time. Unfortunately, it's hard to get time by myself to read them, because my bf would be suspicious and think I was relapsing (which I am, duh).
I'm leaving for a visit home on Saturday, and I really hope my parents don't catch on to my ED! I had a hard enough time at dinner tonight. My bf's parents tried to make me eat more tonight, but I lied and said I ate a lot for lunch. They had a crap-ton of pizza, pasta, and other food at the office today, so it's a plausible story.
Stay strong girls! Do better than me :)