Back to Restricting, and It Feels GREAT!

That's right, it feels AMAZING. I missed it so much! I love being in control again. True, there is still food I want to eat that I can't, but I know it's for the best. As OhMyGosh said yesterday, if I really want this, I will do it. I really want this, and I know I can do it. I just have to tell myself every time I want some food: Do I want to be thin, or do I want food? Duh, I want to be thin!

So today was great. I did pretty much everything I needed to. I woke up, didn't eat, and ran a bunch of errands instead. I turned in my study abroad application, so I don't have to worry about that anymore. I had my mail forwarded to my summer address, so I will get all my magazines and stuff still. I went to the college bookstore and sold back a bunch of textbooks, cashing in at $95.75! Granted, I probably paid $400 for all those books originally, but I still feel rich. I love having 95 extra dollars that I didn't expect to have! This is the first time since my first semester, freshman year that the bookstore has actually taken any of my books, so that is awesome as well. I also got my mom a Mother's Day card and sent it to her, so it should get there in the next few days. Overall, I feel pretty accomplished. I am about to go watch a movie with one of my sorority sisters, and later I will study with some friends for my last exam (which is tomorrow). So today was a pretty good day. All I have left to do is take my exam tomorrow morning (9 am - 12 pm), pack up my stuff (after lunch), and put it in storage (6 pm). Then I'm done!! Here is what I ate today:

- Breakfast: None

- Lunch: Salad with Light Toasted Sesame Dressing and a few beans (61) and some green beans/carrots (35)

- Dinner: Penne Vodka pasta (82), a tiny bit of fried rice (14), and corn (55)

Total calories: 247

Not too bad! I'm feeling very motivated, and I want to continue to be motivated. I WILL NOT have another bad week like the last week. I want to lose 20 pounds this month. I haven't weighed myself yet, but I'm running on the assumption that I have gotten back up to 185 again. Therefore, I want to be at 165 by the beginning of June, regardless if I am 185 now or not. If I get to 165 by the beginning of June, then I will be only slightly behind on my weight goals, and I can catch up. I CAN DO THIS!

I love you ladies :) Thanks for putting up with me! Think thin.