I think this semester is going to be great. I like four of my classes, and am not so sure about the other one. I also convinced the professor that I'm TAing for that I need to leave halfway through class every time, because I need to eat lunch. No way am I sacrificing lunch for a class I've already taken! I also got my work hours mostly straightened out. I am working 6 hours (for now) at the Audio/Visual Media Services department, and I have three hours per week of tutoring so far. I still haven't heard back from one of my tutees, but that's fine. I am holding two positions in my sorority this semester too (Parliamentarian and Assistant Secretary), but neither of those require a whole lot of work.
So I think this is going to be good! We had our first sorority recruitment event yesterday evening (Tie Dye and Apple Pie!) and it was a ton of fun. I tie dyed a shirt green and white (our sorority colors), although I have yet to see it, because it's being laundered. I also ate delicious homemade apple pie and chatted up potential new members. Lots of fun! Last semester, I hated recruitment, because I was hating my sorority and couldn't stand to see any other girls being roped into something horrible like I was. But now I'm in a better place with it, and the meds definitely help, so I'm excited for recruitment! I hope I get a little sister (finally)! I met a really cute sophomore that I definitely wouldn't mind having as a little sister :)
I have been a little weird about food lately. I gorged on chocolate last week, and I don't think it was just because of my period. I just need to not buy the chocolate, and then everything will be fine. I have also read a few pro-ED blogs in the past few days (because I miss my old friends!) and that probably wasn't the best idea. I find myself being jealous of girls who can starve and lose weight easily. While I know that it's not good for me and it doesn't make me happy, I still miss it sometimes. But I have made a commitment to not relapsing while I'm on the Lexapro (or ever, but it feels more important to not relapse on the Lexapro). I feel that starting to take antidepressants is like turning over a new leaf for me. I feel like the person I was before I got depressed and started cutting and started starving/bingeing/purging. So I will not let myself engage in unhappy behaviors while I'm happy like this! I hope that makes sense :)
Well, that's all I've got for now! I hope your day is beautiful. Stay strong <3
Yay! I'm glad you're so positive. :)
ReplyDeleteYou seem to have stuffed worked out. I'm impressed. <3
When you get jealous, think of the GOOD things you can do because you're not fasting! I know that I can't do my weights at the gym or keep pup with my nephew's games without fuel in me :p
ReplyDeleteZOMG we should totally have an international girly night at your sorority. You guys can do apple pie (*Drooooool*) and I can make an industrial sized pavlova! We don't have sororities/frats here :(
They might have them in Oz, if not you can totally come to NZ for a few days/week and have some on me :p
ReplyDeleteUgh, those girls sound like total n00bs. I've got my blue belt in International Exchange Events. (10 months in Japan with a very active, if totally inept exchange company) Everyone brings at least one dish native to their homecountry, random music is sourced and people MINGLE!! Conversation is KEY. Oooooh I could totally unleash marmite&cheese sammiches on your poor unsuspecting frat-mates. *Rubs hands together in glee*
Dralion WAS fine, thank you so much! :D She wasn't in heat or preggers and there were no complications. She has to stay inside for a day or two, and gets the stitches out on the 10th. Poor baby is too sore to jump atm XD
What part of Aussie are you going to? You sure you don't want to come to NZ? We're not a bunch of convicts here, ya know! Bloody aussies keep trying to steal our cultural icons too! Phar Lap was born HERE!!1!
Stay strong and look after yourself today, lovely! xoxoxoxoxox!