Sunday, August 15, 2010

The bad and the good

I had a confrontation with Carly (my bf's mom who I don't like that much) today. I went over with a peace offering (chocolate baked goods) and she cornered me. She asked if I was still upset with her, and I said yes. We had a conversation about why I was frustrated with her, and she basically tried to invalidate all my feelings about her. It was very, very frustrating. Then she told me that I had been rude to her all summer and she wasn't the only one who thought so (although she wouldn't specify who said that, so I don't know if it's really true). My feeling is that if someone has a problem with me, they should say something to my face, not tell the president of the company behind my back. I asked my direct boss (the office manager) last week if I needed to work on anything, and she said she couldn't think of anything. So is there really a problem or is she making it up? She said that Thelma agreed with her, but I haven't had a chance to talk to Thelma about it yet, so I'm not sure that's true either.

This completely sucks. I feel like every time I think things are going well, then something like this happens. What is wrong with me? Why do I always screw up when I have a good thing going? This is so frustrating. I can't even express what I'm feeling right now. Arg!

But I digress. In terms of food, I'm actually doing pretty well. I went to a church picnic today and had corn of the cob. This doesn't sound out of the ordinary, but the kicker is that I watched them dip it in a vat of butter before giving it to me. I almost had a freak-out, but I took a breath and ate it anyway. I did not think about how many calories of butter I was consuming while I was eating it. Also, I went to Old Chicago for dinner, and I had a personal pizza with Chicago-style crust. I ate half of it and was full, so I stopped. Yes! Now I have lunch for tomorrow, and I wasn't overly full.

So although I'm doing well with my food, I'm still struggling with my emotions about Carly and Thelma. What should I do? I feel like I should just be really careful about what I say, and maybe I won't offend them again. I want to work for them again next summer, but maybe it's not a good idea anymore. Help me guys! I desperately need advice. Thanks in advance!

Stay strong everyone <3


  1. My personal opinion is that for your emotional stability and might not be a good idea to work for them again next summer...

    TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF is the number one priority right now

    remember that :) you're worth it

  2. Yay! I'm so proud of you for your EPIC corn achievement! I swear you just gained 6 levels in Badassery right there! *Does happy joy dance*

    Inside is right. Do what is best for YOU. It's shitty that this situation has evolved into backstabbery :( *HUGS*

    I love peggy squares, they are so piss-eay I can make them while reading for Uni XD What's your fave thing to make? Got any good ideas for hats?

    xoxo Kia kaha, biznatch!