A bit better

Hey :)

Today was a bit better (ok, a lot better) than the last week or so. I actually ate normal things. It was sucky and I kind of freaked out, but it will be ok. The more meals I ate, the easier it got. I think my brain remembered that food is a good thing (wait, what? when did this happen?) and it wanted me to eat.

I haven't weighed myself, and I put my scale away so I won't be looking at it constantly. I haven't counted calories today (mostly because I think the number would scare me). It was very difficult to not purge after lunch, but I didn't do that either. I just have to focus and let others help me, because I can't do this by myself (even though I wish I could)...

Thanks to all the people (online and in real life) that helped me these past few days :)
Love ya <3