A journey through eating disorder and self-injury recovery, one second at a time...
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Sooo... this weeks seems to be sucking more than last week. I have cried three times in the last twenty-four hours. I am just so burnt out. I keep going and going and going, but I'm not the Energizer Bunny and I can't go on forever. At some point, very soon, I will not be able to get back up again. I'm just so very tired. So very tired. Physically, emotionally, mentally. Everything seems like a struggle and I want to cry when I think about all of the things on my to-do list. And I don't even get a break. Every time I finish something, something else crops up. I am mostly finished with my thesis proposal and my grad school apps, but now it's time to think about final projects and papers and exams for my classes. It never ends. If this is what graduate school is like... I'm not going to make it! There's no way. I'm scared and I'm tired and I just can't do this anymore. I feel like I'm drowning, and I can't swim much longer before I start to sink.
Good luck! I'm always here for you if you need anything.
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22 years old, graduate student in social work, recovering from EDNOS. I was bulimic in high school and recovered successfully. I relapsed in February 2010, and began recovery again in August 2010. I also struggle with depression and self-injury. But despite these things, I'm trying my best at recovery, and taking it one step at a time.