Saturday, May 26, 2012


I want to write an update post (sorry for not posting very often, I suck), but I'm too upset right now. I have an online friend who is suicidal... sorry friend, you are probably reading this and I don't want to upset you more. I'm just really worried about her, and I can't stop thinking about it. I really care for her, and it's killing me that I can't do anything. Especially since she lives on the other side of the world, and there is no possible way of getting in contact with her! She could be dead, and I would never find out. This is the worst feeling ever. I need help, guys. I have no idea what to do. I just really care about her and don't want to see anything bad happen to her. Please help.


  1. I want you to know she is in my thoughts and prays. I hope things turn around for her and even though I am not sure what is goin on she is loved and now me a complete stranger is sending love and some sort of release her way. convince her not to give up she never knows what might lay ahead. please keep us posted and again sending prays her way!!!

  2. All we can do is be there for those we care about. It is so terrifying, to be so far away and unable to do anything to help someone. There are wonderful parts of the internet - opening our world up to outside our own nation, for instance. But being continents away from someone hurting, in pain, needing our help, possibly on the edge of making a devastating decision? Horrible. I've been through that, and I don't have any advice to give you. Be there for your friend as much as you can be, while staying as together as you can be, too. Listen, care, ask questions.

    *hugs* I hope she's okay.

  3. If it's me I'm so sorry to make you upset, love. I really don't want to make you feel bad. I promise that I'd say goodbye if I couldn't handle things anymore and I am trying to get help but the system here doesn't care until you're in A&E being stitched up or pumped out. I'm trying, I promise. I'm sorry. I don't want you to worry.

    Love you so so so much *hugs*

  4. P.S.
    It's ok, you needed to get it off your chest. I feel really bad for making you worry so much now :(

    Lol, yeah that guy was totally barking. It was so weird to hear what goes on in my head coming out of his mouth. It made me see how fucking irritating it can be to people on the outside. STOP TALKING YOURSELF OUT OF EVERY DAMN THING AND JUST PICK SOMETHING YOU'D LIKE FOR LUNCH, MAN. Yikes!

    Ok, DON'T PANIC if I don't post for about 5 days. I'm not going to be dead. (Unless I have a horrible traffic accident or get lynched by zombies) I'm going to a Folk Festival about an hour north of here and there will be no internet or computers (/cry) This one, to be precise:
    Miles and I are leaving at lunchtime Friday NZ time, and should be back at some time on Monday. I may have to come back here Saturday and Sunday to feed my cat (Woot! 2hour round trip. I LOVE MY MOTORBIKE! I never get to joyride anymore, this is going to be GREAT!) but I can't gaurantt I'll be able to internet in that time.

    Holy shit, I haven't been to Iona since Primary School camp! I'm so taking my camera. Everything is going to look so small! I miss the Confidence Course they have at Berwick. All sorts of climbing, rope-swinging, balancing and jumping stuff. Lol, the days when exercise was done at the playground and not at the gym. We need adult-sized playgrounds!

    Take care of yourself, I love you so so so much <3