This week is National Suicide Prevention Week, and I'm pretty grateful to be alive. I'm sure you all remember fall 2010, when I was contemplating taking my life every day. I am so blessed to have the friends that I have... without my friends, I literally wouldn't be alive today. I don't remember the code names that I used for everyone... but thank you to MM, MF, DK, TW, SJ, IJ, AB, DD, KH, and many others that I'm forgetting. It is so amazing to be on the other side of depression and suicidality, and to be able to look back and be glad that I didn't follow through. There were so many times when I sat with a bottle of pills or a suicide note or a razor blade pressed to my wrist, just thinking about death and struggling with life. THANK YOU, GOD for saving me from myself!
And thank you, dear followers, for being here for me. Your comments and readership during that time and other times really helped me. It was wonderful to know that even when I didn't want to live, other people wanted me to live. A special shout-out to Peri, who has been my rock for years. Thank you for being ridiculously amazing! Thank you thank you thank you.
Learn more about NSPW here:
http://www.suicidology.org/about-aas/nspw
And here:
http://www.twloha.com/blog/join-twloha-for-national-suicide
I made a yellow ribbon and wore it to work on Monday. Only one customer commented on it :/
ReplyDeleteYou're one of the people to whom I owe my continued existence. A bright light of love shining from across the oceans.
Lol, it's hard to picture myself as someone's rock when I feel so unstable most of the time. One of those wobbly kinds of rocks? Thank YOU for being so completely awesome.
You're not flaky! From what you've posted you're insanely busy! I feel like such a munter because I read your other blog's posts and want to comment but always forget to log into my craft blog account so I can :( Doing that would force me to post on my craft blog more often too. Tomorrow is a day off with crappy weather forecast so I have no excuse. I miss talking philosophical-type things.
A TWLOHA-inspired tattoo I'm thinking about getting is a white ink one on my left forearm. "LOVE" over and over down my forearm in little block letter so it looks like a dotted line from a distance, with a "do not cut here" symbol at one end of it. (Scissors with a line through them) The idea has to sit for a few more years before I get it inked, though.
Love you Liz. You're fantastic and far too ncie to me. Take care of yourself and don't work too hard, ok? :p
<3